One thing I will miss

Carver still likes to sleep in bed with me most nights. He never slept in the bed with me as a baby or toddler. He was always so good at sleeping in his own room without any sort of issue. Then, when he was 6 or so he started wanting to sleep with me, and eventually Daniel got pushed out and he slept with me every night. It was sometimes frustrating at first. Kids "should" sleep in their own room. Parents "should" share a room. And I actually agree with those things. But, sometimes, being flexible is what works and so Carver stayed. In the years since then he has been in and out of my room. Sometimes Carson wants a turn to sleep with me too and they have to take turns. 

There are times that I try to get them back consistently into their own rooms. So far, it hasn't worked in any kind of permanent way. But I know that one day he won't want to sleep in my room anymore. He'll be too old and too independent and he will choose to go back to his room and that will be the end of this phase. So instead of being too worried that they aren't sleeping where they should sleep, I am choosing to embrace this sweet time in their childhoods. 

Ten years with Carver at home is already finished. He is halfway to adulthood and so I will cling to this. To the nights when he is sleeping in the middle of our king sized bed instead of on his own side. To the repositioning of him I have to do all throughout the night so that I can sleep a little too. I will hold on tight to these moments because one day I won't have him so close. 

And I want to cherish each of these small things. One day I will miss them so much.