I really love Spring. I think Fall is probably my favorite season; but Spring is a close second. This year we had an incredibly mild winter, so it was not so much the temperature change that was nice, but rather the sudden appearance of flowers and leaves and
rebirth of life. I love to watch things come back to life. Flowers begin to push their way through the ground, trees bloom and then leaves cover the limbs again, birds are more active, and the world just seems more alive than before.
Spring also brings the emergence of these "little" guys.

Meet the Carpenter Bee.
Yesterday, when I pulled into our driveway I saw, for the first time this Spring, these ginormous bees flying around. In general, I am afraid of bugs, especially those of the stinging/biting variety. But, these have been around in mass every Spring and Summer since we moved here so I have learned to live with them without too much fear.
Spotting them yesterday was bittersweet.
Delia was completely obsessed with these bees. And I had forgotten that. She tirelessly chased them around the yard, through my flowerbeds (often crushing my flowers), jumping up and trying to catch them in her mouth. I would watch her,
so stressed, that she would succeed and then have an angry bee trapped in her mouth.
Delia and I spent countless hours outside together. Most of these hours were before Carver was born, when my time was much freer, but even after his arrival we sat outside together. We usually sat on the front porch, me in my chair, and Delia in hers. I would read or talk on the phone, study, or grade papers. Periodically visiting with neighbors (and their dogs). And all the while Delia stayed right with me. These are some of my favorite moments with her.
Seeing the bees yesterday was a little sad. It's sad to know that I won't get to see her chase the bees anymore. It's daunting to know that every time I see one of those bees (which will be multiple times a day), I will think of those long spring and summer days with Delia. Happy memories that are still frustrating because I won't ever get those moments back.
A sad reminder of what is lost, but a sweet reminder of what I had.
But, I can so vividly picture her enthusiasm at chasing those bees. Usually futilely. But, they gave her so much entertainment, such focus, and she would chase them with reckless abandon. I loved that. It was some of her most active moments.
Maybe every Spring the return of the bees will be a sweet reminder. A chance to remember better days, and a time to thank God for new life. For the movement of time. For sending sweet reminders of her that are good and happy and special.
That's what these bees say to me.